cucktaleparty: My wife once casually mentioned that she had given a guy a BJ in his car. She was tal
cucktaleparty: My wife once casually mentioned that she had given a guy a BJ in his car. She was talking about something else and it was just this little “Oh, by the way” part of the conversation. No big deal, just a little thing that happened a while back. And outwardly I was like, “Oh sure, of course” while inwardly I had this total freakout of panic and euphoria, unable to think about anything else for like a month. There’s a lot more I wish I could say about the feelings I got when it I realized she had gotten entirely comfortable with her sexuality and that nothing at all was up to me. But that feeling is so elusive and my words are so inadequate. I don’t know how to express it except to say it was thrilling and terrifying. I obsessed over it and was unable to stop visualizing how good her mouth must have felt to him, and the moment he was ejaculating and she was swallowing for him. Always wondering what he was telling his friends about her. Feeling emasculated, but so excited all at once. I"m sorry. I look at these words, and they just don’t do justice to how it felt and how overpowering it all was. -- source link