Success and Failure I’ve been wrestling with how to write this up and am honestly still pr
Success and Failure I’ve been wrestling with how to write this up and am honestly still processing what happened the other night. I still feel as though I’ve failed my Pet, failed to set her up to succeed and failed to push her to a place I know she can go. I have a fantasy, a little whisper at the back of my mind, to see Pet crying after a session of spanking. The thought of breaking her down to build her up or perhaps just the complete surrender of it, is erotic to me. Whatever the reason, it is still a big ask for both of us. My tendency is to care for her, protect her from everything, so it is hard for me to push her this far. For her, the severity of the request is more clear - it’s just going to hurt a lot, and as we’ve already stated, my Pet is not a masochist. We’ve circled this topic for weeks, discussing and reassuring one another that we can do these things. My Pet is so strong and wonderful, she encouraged me to do this even though she takes no pleasure in the physical aspects of it. Sadly, the other night when I decided the time had finally come, we were not able to get there. I don’t know if it was because I wasn’t strong enough for her, making my needs clear enough, or simply not supporting her enough. Throughout the session I asked questions like “Are you ok? Can you do this?” These are questions that are tinged with doubt. They don’t offer reassurance of show my pride in her. Pet, of course, blames herself for not being able to go on, but I don’t think this is her blame to shoulder. It saddens me to think she feels I am disappointed in her performance, and I want to reassure her that she is still my Good Girl. She always will be. Pet’s Thoughts: I love you. I don’t think that you failed me at all. I think that you recognized when I was at a point that I could no longer take it and you stopped. You know me well enough to know that it needed to stop and you did so before I had to ask you to, a fact that I am extremely grateful for. It makes me trust you even more which I didn’t think was possible. I can’t believe that I am saying this (you’re right, I am *not* a masochist!) but we can try again if you really want to. –Pet -- source link
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