CN: discussion of NYE weight loss pressure, body dysmorphia/ED, and weight changes in the past year
CN: discussion of NYE weight loss pressure, body dysmorphia/ED, and weight changes in the past year Somehow the topic of weight came up around me recently and my brain spiraled a little. I have body dysmorphia and a history of disordered eating so I do not weigh myself on a scale or count anything (calories, hours of eating, etc) but I have felt a bit of that “too big for my skin” feeling when I look in the mirror; this “is that really my face right now?” feeling that often comes with body dysmorphia. And with a quickness a different voice came up inside of me, similar to the voice that appeared about a decade ago when I initially recovered, “You better hold onto your tummy and comfort that inner child!” What would you say to yourself if you were your own child? What would you say to yourself if you viewed everything you went through from an outside lens and you loved yourself unconditionally? “Baby, you are here. You survived every day to get here. You are here and you are alive and that is all you need to do. This body is holding you inside and that is enough. This body held you through all the trauma and grief, hold your body, hold yourself in return. I’m so proud of you and I am grateful to have you here with me.” Angels, please don’t let anyone or anything pressure you into anything but just existing right now. Not just because we’re done with 2020 and it was such a difficult year all around but any year moving forward. Just exist and be here with us, that’s enough. You truly are so so loved! I am grateful for you! [image description: an altered background appears as an impressionist painting of water and lily pads, Annie stands leaning against a wall wearing a black camisole and underwear, with long black wavy hair, holding her round belly and smiling] https://www.instagram.com/p/CJdx0PcD2Mp/?igshid=14ted0uwdo71n -- source link