Many of my boyhood obsessions, where of many of the same girls that all the other boys drooled over.
Many of my boyhood obsessions, where of many of the same girls that all the other boys drooled over. I desperately didn’t want to admit to myself, how the biggest gratification I got, was from the impression of being into girls, that my friends believed, and that I so wanted to believe, that my love of glamour, was the same as the actual desire for girls that my friends had. How every time when looking through girly magazines with my friends, I secretly was made to feel overwhelmed by the discomfort, in being confronted by how my relationship to girls weren’t anything like the desires my friend’s had for them. That they weren’t in any way a desire for girls, but an appreciation of beauty and glamour that an average girl would have, looking through a fashion magazine. These uncomfortable truths would lead me open to more uncomfortable truths. That where my love of glamour was like that of a girl, that my true desires were for the same things that girls desire….. and that I wouldn’t be able to run from these desires forever…….. The Masochistic Emasculation Fetish reddit group -- source link
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