Today, I heard this song, and I cried… All through this career change journey, I realized
Today, I heard this song, and I cried… All through this career change journey, I realized I never said my proper good bye to dance. Probably because I never wanted to say it. Last time I did, I became a very depressed person. I had to get up from my computer seat to freestyle, as an ode to dance. I wanna go back to the sweet beginnings When I was young and full of innocence Dance was the first thing in life that really made me feel alive. Dance was something to live for. That was when I was 16 years old and took my first official dance class at my high school. I took my dance career as far as starting my own performing arts company, and I took that as far as I did. And I keep runnin, runnin’ circles, circles Tryna understand why the dreams I die for are now killin’ me I gave it my heart and soul and ran myself to the ground. I took it as far as I was willing to take, short of sacrificing other important things in life. I’m glad I did because I can look back with zero regrets. And I keep runnin, runnin’ circles, circles Tryna figure out why this life is not what I thought it’d be I moved on to a career change with bitterness in my heart. Bitter that dance didn’t give me the financial backing I needed to keep going. Learning web development was extra hard because I was full of resentment and resistance. Now that I’m seeing the advantages of this career change and beginning to accept my life as a developer, I realized I need to go back to dance. Ever since I learned that I was depressed without dance, I’ve always known I needed it for the rest of my life. I can’t believe I was shunning it this whole time. I shunned it because I was so burnt out from running BOSS. I shunned it because it was easier to transition into computer world without it. I shunned it thinking aerials will replace it, no problem. I wanna go back to the sweet beginnings When I was young and full of innocence I wanna go bak to complete surrender of you Nothing will ever make me feel the way dance makes me feel. When I #dance, it’s easy, breezy, free me. I love you, dance. Surrendering to music is what my soul was put in this body to do. @rahkster (at South Lake Tahoe, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMiu630H4dF/?igshid=niaujhq9hx1v -- source link
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