As is the case with most things, I could get used to it. Dropping out of school early and making use
As is the case with most things, I could get used to it. Dropping out of school early and making use of my effeminate physique that I had earned from a hormone imbalance, was all worth it due to the amount of money I was making. It was ironic, how I was quite fulfilled as a young male, who got to be around scantily clad women on a daily basis (without however sleeping with them). I would become ever content and open minded, around these kind women, even regarding the other kinds of scenes that they did, and openly said they preferred doing, and would do solely, were they able to get enough work doing it. What I am talking about, is something I would have been disgusted by, as an average boy before my entrance into softcore glamour modelling. The idea of doing scenes with men. My first scenes with men were very uncomfortable indeed, but as I said, you get used to things. I got used to placing my hands in contact with any part of a male’s muscular physique, even being kissed by one for the first time, everything required of me in softcore. I knew I had come to feel quite different about men, but I didn’t think much about it, going on to take as much work with men as I did with the girls, but a line was crossed, when in one scene, my mouth agape in “awe” over an impressive erection, as what does happen on occasion, the member spontaneously ejaculated, with a sizable amount shooting directly into my mouth. My following scenes with men, still in a shocked, hazed, confused state, having already had cum in my mouth, it was of little consequence what I then done. A glamour photographer places much value on pushing his models ever further, so when I indulged him by taking my first penis into my mouth, it was warmly welcomed. I had crossed a line with men, knowing I was no longer doing “softcore”. My scenes with girls by then, by virtue of earning more with men (as I liked to rationalize it), were far and few between, and I was getting criticism. The girls often talked of the struggle to appear engaged and enthusiastic, when you aren’t into girls, especially when they also do scenes with men. One particular scene, things really came to ahead, with a producer angrily cancelling the shoot, claiming he “Can’t work with girls who don’t like girls”. Again, stunned like I had been earlier in my career, in a haze with a following scene with a male, laying on top of him with the head of his penis resting against the entrance of my anus, as I had by then done many times, I instead done the unimaginable. Pushing down on it, until the head was inside me. Then further until my behind sat atop of his pelvis. My body suddenly spasmed, as my member ejaculated. In that moment I knew I would never do another scene with a girl. Hell, then I would have been happy never to have seen another unclothed woman ever again, such was my desire, I could no longer deny, for men, and men only. The Masochistic Emasculation Fetish reddit group -- source link