#motivationmonday for my own damn self. Last few months have been difficult to say the absolute leas
#motivationmonday for my own damn self. Last few months have been difficult to say the absolute least. I fell into a really bad place, somewhere I hadn’t been since before the weight loss. I ended up gaining almost 10+ish lbs…I’ve lost 8 of those now and feeling glimmers of hope again. It’s very true- LOSING WEIGHT DOESNT SOLVE YOUR PROBLEMS…if anything it exposes others that were suppressed. So Instead of a food addiction, I turned to something else to numb..The pandemic has been..awful and exasperated what was brewing in the dark. Suffered many loses on different levels, a new trauma made a violent entrance and my good old ptsd took the fuck off again. Super cliche but I’m motivated to still take it day by day..I try to hold at least one bug a day, i talk to plants, I smile & greet at all the animals and bugs I see. Being stuck at home but outside 90% of the day has been therapeutic, in addition to a new therapist and a new, hopeful medication plan. I even started running in the last ½ of our evening walks poor dogs. I eat homegrown veggies everyday again and even made lavender tea last night from our bush in the front yard! I’m slowly getting better. I can’t feel it again. trusting the process, having an open heart and mind towards my support system who checks in with texts, phone calls or tags me in positive/uplifting word posts. I’m no picnic, but I’m learning to be easier on myself and be more aware of what I CAN control rather than not. Lastly I will share my current go to when im having a rough moment…I stop and breathe. Deep breaths, describe my surrounding and say to myself “you’re still here” “you are alive” “you deserve to be here” and I share that intimate thing just In case anyone reading this is struggling as well. . ✨♀️✨ (at Pasadena, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CEkAE8-HAje/?igshid=11tvnhtvvgjqx -- source link
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