I actually ended up doing that to myself. I always thought that women who smoked cigarettes were sup
I actually ended up doing that to myself. I always thought that women who smoked cigarettes were super sexy. Once I realized I wanted to be a woman, I knew I wanted to be a smoker too. So at sixteen, I stole two packs of cigarettes from my stepmom and smoked a cigarette every thirty minutes until I finished a whole pack just to make sure I would get hooked. Sure enough, soon I was already smoking a pack a day and never slowed down. Now, as I’m about to turn thirty-one, I have three packs of cigarettes in my purse and a vape pen so I always have a source of nicotine on me!So fun fact, I didn’t have my first taste of alcohol until I was 28. During high school I remember my dad’s girlfriend throwing parties for her niece her friends (who were all my age) and being the only sober one in the house. Truth is, I wouldn’t let myself drink because I was trying repress/hide anything I fantasied about doing as my feminine self. Secretly, I always wanted to be a wild party girl who spends all weekend flirting/hooking up with hot guys at clubs and bars and getting blackout drunk. Once I started coming out I decided that I wanted to start drinking. However, I couldn’t stand the taste of alcohol at all. It was so bad, I couldn’t finish a single drink. Eventually I came up with a crazy plan. Every day after work I would make myself a vodka cranberry shot. At first I would put next to no vodka in but gradually increase the amount until I could a shot of pure vodka. Within a month, I was actually doing a couple shots of vodka a night. I planned on stoping the daily shots at that point but I had grown to really like being drunk so I just never stoped. Now I have a fridge full of beer and/or White Claws and a cabinet full of liquor bottles. I’ve also gone from barely handling a single shot of vodka to the point where on one occasion I downed almost half a bottle of 100 proof vodka in a single night.Now for most of my life I had zero influence in any kind of drugs whatsoever. Then I think about a year ago I was at my friend’s house where he had smoked weed in front of me a million times. Suddenly, completely out of nowhere, I felt the urge ask to try a hit from his bong. I ignored it at first but it just kept getting stronger. Finally I cracked and smoked weed for the first time. No joke, I loved it so much I bought some off him that night and the next day I had my own bong! I went from zero to complete stoner virtually overnight. There hasn’t been a day since then I haven’t smoked weed. After a little while, I was at a party and was offered to do a line of coke. I decided to try it and ended up really liking it too! After that I started trying just about any drug I could get my hands on. So now here I am, in somewhere around a year, going from no drugs ever to almost constantly being high on everything from weed, to meth, to acid, to coke, and on the very rare occasion some heroin! It definitely helps that my dealer is willing to accept some “alternate forms of payment” if you know what I mean ;)And that leads me to the last thing. Again, for twenty some odd years I repressed any sexual urges I had towards men. Then when I first came out I couldn’t wait to post an ad on DoubleList and hookup with a guy. I remember being fairly surprised the first I was making out with a guy and suddenly realizing, without thinking about it, my hand was down his pants stoking his cock. The one that totally sealed the deal for me though was the first time I got fucked. Once his cock started sliding in and out of my ass it was like pure instinct took over. My conscious mind all but shut down completely and my body just took over. I was reaching back and trying to pull him in deeper, pushing back against him bouncing my ass on his cock, and filled with a sense of overwhelming pleasure stronger than anything I ever experienced before. All of that alone was more than enough for me to say I prefer sex with guys. However, after he came in my ass and I started to regain my mind a bit, I rolled over on my back and was surprise to see that not only was I fully erect, but I had never seen myself that hard ever in my life! Clearly even my penis is more turned on by sex with men! Another thing from that hookup that I think really rubbed in just how gay I actually am is what happened on my way out. After having the best sex of my life, I went in to give him a thank you/good bye kiss but he refused and just gave me an awkward hug instead. The thing is, during the whole drive back home the only thing I could think about was how pissed I was I didn’t get to kiss him! Anyway how does that story tie into the photo. Well, I think I’ve established that I really fucking enjoy sex with men. So much so that I will basically take any cock pointing in my direction. I’m also not above some more questionable things. Like as I eluded to above, basically instead of paying my dealer cash, I spend the night at his place and we fuck the shit out of each other. I’m not necessarily proud of it I’m not gonna lie, I really fucking enjoy it. -- source link
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